January 2011
108 posts
I'm actually doing nothing for new years.
The flu is going around my house like mad. So therefore, no one is up to doing anything. Shelby may come home, but considering she’s one of the only ones not sick, I doubt it.
December 2010
215 posts
New URL. Used to be Confessionsofadarkheart, now...
Lust is what keeps the blood pumping through my...
Each kiss drawing me deeper into his arms. His embrace is all I need. Problem is I don’t mind it, not for one minute.
I was extremely ill the past few days.
I couldn’t keep any food down. I lost track of how many times I vomitted after about 14. I even threw up any medication my dad and step mom tried to give me. It was insane. Overall, I was very thankful to have my family while being that sick. I was in bed for over 48 hours. Never got out of bed. Kaleigh, Shelby, and Cheri took good care of me though. I’m not completely better, but...
Kaleigh and I went to the mall. :) We went in hot topic. Christmas sales made everything picked over, which is what I figured. I’m saving my $20 gift card for another time. She got a lot of cute stuff at Macy’s, and Icing.(?) I got a purple purse, which Kaleigh gave me a $1 to afford the tax. I’m really glad she did, because I love the purse. It’s purple, my favorite color....
I think the way he smiles is beautiful. Something about it leaves me hanging. At times it’s as if I am hanging off a cliff, and at other times as if I am riding the clouds. He can turn my smile to a frown, and my frown to a smile within seconds. There is something insane about the way this feels.
I wish I was better at writing. I wish I could surprise many with the words coming from my mouth. I want to be inspiring, someone for people to admire. I want to be unique, I want to be worth while. Most of all, I don’t want to be boring.
I don’t hate you. So tell me now, if this ain’t love then how do we get out? Cause I don’t know.
Virginity means less and less to me day by day. I’m not sure why. It’s not a sign of me being stupid or immature. I just don’t see it as something as great as everyone wants to portray it. No one has it anymore. Yet, that doesn’t make it any more special to me.
Kaleigh went out with her boyfriend and Shelby went to Clementine’s with Joe and Andrew. They are all going to drink/get fucked up. Shelby said she might not come home. Even if she does, she sleeps in the same bed as me. Which means she’ll be waking me up at early hours of the night. Fantastic. This is what I mean about not being old enough. I’d like to do something fun rather...
I’m tired of those grown up trying to say growing up isn’t great. I don’t want to get old, I just want to be 18. I want to stay 18. Not for forever, but for long enough. I want to be able to drive, have a job, go to school, party, and just live life to the fullest. I can’t do anything as of right now. All of my friends are quite a big chunk of years older than myself. I...
basementlily-deactivated2011031 asked: Haha, everyone thinks that my name is Lily until they get to know me. Don't worry about it.
The name started when I was a senior in high school. I left my gym shirt in the basement too long and tried to cover the musty smell with lily body spray and I said to my friend, "I smell like a basement lily." I liked it, so, yeah.
I also associate it with my pot head father....
The name started when I was a senior in high school. I left my gym shirt in the basement too long and tried to cover the musty smell with lily body spray and I said to my friend, "I smell like a basement lily." I liked it, so, yeah.
I also associate it with my pot head father....
basementlily-deactivated2011031 asked: I WANT ONE OF THOSE BALLS!
His touch seems faint yet familiar. It is the base of my subconcious sleep, but it is never quite the same. Get me intoxicated and get him off my mind, even if just for the moment.
Brown. Brown. Brown. I am so fucking brown....
Her butt, it's just so...big!
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Yesterday at the tennis court..
A dog that belonged to other people ran up to Jessica and I on the bench. Her name was Kiki. It was the cutest puppy ever. I believe it was a minature poodle, or some mixed breed. It was really fluffy and soft. I wanted to keep it forever. Jessica and I kept calling it’s name once it left but it didn’t come back over. :( KIKI COME BACK!
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This is how I feel right now.
I want to make love right now. ;)
….ew you perv, I meant with Jessica’s ball!
I miss the 90's dude.
Saturday morning cartoons for the win! Yoyos made you the shit. Everyone ran around with their shoes brightening the room with their flashing colors. The TV shows were actually funny, instead of just stupid.
We had scrambled egg burritos for breakfast. It...
Except that we ran out of ketchup. Sad face. ;)
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Jessica is my soulmate, I have no anxiety around...
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She loves the head phones I bought her. =D
My Christmas was pretty insane.
I was the only person underage (under 18 is how I mean underage) and every single person was either drunk or high. Woo for being the only person who CAN’T be under the influence on Christmas. Oh well, I’m the only one who remembers everything and can laugh at all of them.
For the most part just helping Jessica set up her...
I got a lot of good gifts for Christmas this year!...
amore-infranto replied to your post: Last night on the phone.. Maybe you should wait to say it again until he says it on his own? I had a feeling someone would misread that. lol. I said I love you to my mom and he knew it was towards my mom but said “I love you too” all serious like. But that’s how I know he was joking because he knew it was towards my mom.
“I really missed you today. & I do take you seriously. You just confuse me with the things you say sometimes. You are mad at me at times for absolutely no reason. You remind me of how I was at your age. I over analyzed everything. I took things too seriously. That’s how I can tell you are fifteen.”
Last night on the phone..
The alarm went off. I kind of freaked out and joked about how James had to protect me from the mass murderer/rapist that probably just broke into our house. My mom came running into my room and after everything calmed down, said goodnight and we exchanged our “I love you’s.” As I said I love you, James replied “I love you too.” I hate him for that, because I know he...
28326.) I fall in love too easily. And I've fallen...
28351.) I love my life, it's amazing. There's one...
Should I call him? That'd be wrong of me huh? I...
I just ugh. I need…………………………………………something.
I kind of feel like I might puke.
James needs to call me. Why do I freak out over every little thing? I just want to talk to him for some comfort. I don’t care if it’s about how fat and hairy santa is. Seriously. I just want to talk to him.
My dad has a tumor in his shoulder.
They said it probably isn’t canceris and that surgery should do the trick, but I am still a bit worried.
Despite the news I got today, I am in an amazing...
I’m rocking out to Fall Out Boy’s cover of Roxanne, and it’s never felt so good. :)
24667.) we've been talking for a long time, but i...
I think I look prettier in pictures.
Which actually sucks. I want it to be the other way around, just still look pretty enough in pictures. You know? I can’t complain, just saying. I wish I was prettier.